Let’s just say that Chrisette inspired me.

I have to admit it, I have been wasting my time…and maybe he would say the same thing.

Have you ever met someone that you’d never–not in a million years–think that you would click–let alone that they would be someone that you’d end up in this weird back and forth relationship? (And I use the term relationship loosely…)  Read more...

say you love me…or your hate me.

say you like me…do you want to date me?

say it’s over–but it never began…

say its over–just tell me its the end?!

say we’re friends…or enemies

say we’re lovers…are you that into me?

say we’ll never…be anything

just say something…because i can’t let it be

in every relationship, we each bring baggage. our past relationships, our past experiences, and our past in general, affect how we deal with our romantic reality (you like that term, don’t you?).

the biggest issue in most of our relationships, is not the things that she has said (we’ll deal with the bois later), but the things that she has not said–but that you have probably noticed.  Read more...

Ladies, is a Pimp Killer something you aspire to be?

I was listening to “Pimp In Me” by J Holiday. As he sang…

Cause you got it all girl…body of a call girl…

Wait? Did I hear him correctly? But then again, he is a Pimp, so of course he would automatically refer to me as a ho. He did go on to say mind of a teacher, so I get it…he can appreciate a woman holistically…her mind and body…but wait? Is that having it all? What about my soul? Are we not accounting for it?  Read more...

I cannot go back, all I can do is go forward
There are so many things I want to erase, so many words I need to say
Where do I begin?
How do I begin?
I have had a glimpse of life with out you, and it is a reality that I do not want
What exactly does this mean, I do not know
I do know, that you are important to me, and I want you in my life
Sometimes you get use to someone, something
You get in a routine, and you just assume that things will always remain
I guess that was my mistake
Things are different. Things have changed. Things might not ever be the same.
I hope not…
I hope for a future with you
I hope to share my dreams and aspirations with you
I hope that you can look pass my faults and see my needs
See that I need you
Sometimes I get a bit beside myself
I lose control of my senses and let my emotions take control
For that, I apologize…
It is unfair for me to expect you to think or feel the way that I do
Is it wrong of me to ask you to let me in?
Let me in on what you are feeling…
Allow me to share those feelings, be it good or bad
I am up for the challenge
I know the road ahead will not always be easy
What is easy is not always what is best
Some things have changed, but one thing still remains
I feel the same way for you today, as I did yesterday
My first thought when I wake up is still you
My last thought before I go to bed is still you
Sometimes I hold back, and not show exactly how I feel
I have worked so long to protect my feelings
The walls we build around us are so much easier to put up than they are to tear down
Sometimes it is hard for me to show you exactly how I feel
Sometimes I have a hard time articulating my thoughts
It seems the more I say, the more cloudy the sky becomes
I can see the sun rising on the horizon, and I know that great things are to come
I have allowed myself to breathe, and now I have clarity
It is clear what I want…
I want your arms to hold me.
I want your lips to kiss me.
I want your smile to welcome me.
I want your voice to whisper to me.
I want…
You.

after posting a thought on facebook about “real friends,” and receiving numerous responses.  i had to pause for a moment to simply examine the thought of being real…especially in relationships.  there are simply too many plastic relationships floating around and while it seems harmless, people are becoming tainted and jaded by the acts of random plastics.

what’s a plastic?  Read more...

Over and Over in My mind
I hear these lines…
Silly of me, to think that I
Would ever have you for my guy…Yeah…silly of me…
To believe you, when you said, you liked me
I once said that I did not think I measured up to your standards
Your response…
How could you NOT know you are the highest measure?
Yeah, now I know you were feeding me a line
But see…to me…
That was real, it was my reality
Because for me, you set the bar
Funny how quickly things can change
The same man that gave me hugs and kisses, told me he missed me
Know disregards my presence, ignores my questions, treats me with disrespect
The same man who played the role…you know…
“I think I might get hurt because I will end up liking you  more…”
Yeah, well…guess who ended up hurt.
I stopped looking once I found you…
Yet you continuously looked past me
I said I would not cry, but it’s easier said than done…
Because although you’ve forgotten me, you’re still with me
You’re in my thoughts, and you haunt my dreams
But as much as I am hurting right now, I have to press on
Time does not stand still, life moves on…regardless of what’s going on.
I think to myself…
Weeping only endures for the night…
For now, I’m rejected
But it was to be expected
See I’m Loving, Giving
And some just can’t handle it…
They are scared to be loved
Don’t know what’s it’s like to be loved
And I have just accepted
That with these types…
I will always be rejected.  Read more...

i have been inspired by the most unlikely source…would you believe that a sermon by john hagee on tbn (christian network) has created the inspiration i needed to write.

john hagee is usually pretty fire and brimstone, but i found myself not turning the channel, for once.

during the sermon, he talked about the kinds of love that exists in the world.   Read more...

Don’t screw it.

Take me in your arms, look me in the eyes, and tell me how sexy my mind is…work to build that connection with me that allows us to become as one…sensuality is a mentality…allow our minds to intertwine with a heightened sense of passion…when you make love to my mind you got me…all of me.  Tell me how good I am to you, tell me how much you love the way I move…make love to my mind…gently whisper sweet nothings in my ear, as we share each others space, chemistry is in place, as we create the formula…make love to mind…connect with my inner essence…  Read more...

this article is some what  of a departure from our standard soapboxes on love and relationships, but not really.

i can’t believe that i am the only one who has noticed it, but i will take the time to say it out loud.  it all started with a ride down a texas highway…  Read more...