Just gonna stand there and watch my burn?

You ask… Yet you’re the one that lit the match…

As a young child, my now 20 something year old cousin would inflict pain upon himself.  One day he begins to repeatedly hit himself in the head, and I commanded him to stop, asking “Why are you doing that to yourself?”   His response, “I like pain.”

Until this day, his words still resonate with me… “I like pain.”  Read more...

Sometimes I feel as if Sex and the City is a dramatic exaggeration of my life…

I recall the episode in which Carrie was planning to celebrate her birthday with a nice dinner surrounded by friends…

Yet she was the only one at the table… stood up, by everyone in her life.

This was her 35th birthday celebration I believe… she was not excited about celebrating, and everything surrounding her day seemed to go wrong.  Read more...

You know what it is, you make something out of nothing – Juvenile

Of course, well all are chasing paper…We all have to make a living, we all want to have nice things…

But I’m not talking about the type of paper that can be deposited at Bank of America.

Ladies, it’s time that we sit back and reflect…time to own up to why we sometimes end up in these relationships that lead us to a dead in to nowhere.  Read more...

Over and Over in My mind
I hear these lines…
Silly of me, to think that I
Would ever have you for my guy…Yeah…silly of me…
To believe you, when you said, you liked me
I once said that I did not think I measured up to your standards
Your response…
How could you NOT know you are the highest measure?
Yeah, now I know you were feeding me a line
But see…to me…
That was real, it was my reality
Because for me, you set the bar
Funny how quickly things can change
The same man that gave me hugs and kisses, told me he missed me
Know disregards my presence, ignores my questions, treats me with disrespect
The same man who played the role…you know…
“I think I might get hurt because I will end up liking you  more…”
Yeah, well…guess who ended up hurt.
I stopped looking once I found you…
Yet you continuously looked past me
I said I would not cry, but it’s easier said than done…
Because although you’ve forgotten me, you’re still with me
You’re in my thoughts, and you haunt my dreams
But as much as I am hurting right now, I have to press on
Time does not stand still, life moves on…regardless of what’s going on.
I think to myself…
Weeping only endures for the night…
For now, I’m rejected
But it was to be expected
See I’m Loving, Giving
And some just can’t handle it…
They are scared to be loved
Don’t know what’s it’s like to be loved
And I have just accepted
That with these types…
I will always be rejected.  Read more...

maybe if i write it all down, it will go away…i know, it sounds like a silly thought, but let’s see what happens…

dear you,

i am writing this letter so i can say what i want to say to you without interruption…without the need for your response or reaction.  Read more...

is it?

if i hear anyone say that one more time i am going to scream!

what exactly does that mean? “it’s complicated…”

relationships are not complicated–actually they are extremely simple.  it’s all the stuff that comes with the relationship that makes it complicated.  if you like me and i like you and we want to figure out what that means…then all we have to do is hang out and be cool, and see where the road takes us.  its only when people start asking questions:  Read more...

i wonder when we

will stop playing this game and

decide to be real?

love just can’t be “love”

it’s more than just a word its

giving all you are