I recall listening to Dwayne Wade speak on his (soon to be ex) wife, Siohvaughn…saying that he made a childhood promise to her that wherever he went, he was going to make sure to take her with him…

As I listened to him speak of this promise he made to his wife as a young boi, I observed his tone…his choice of words, and thought…

He married her out of obligation.

Now I think back on a personal situation…girl meets boi, girl is attracted to boi, girl at this point in life is shy in regards to letting her feelings be known, and not that it matters because boi has a girlfriend…

Yet boi pursues girl, constantly telling her how much he likes her…never trying to get physical with girl, just wanting to get to know her better…he never talked about his girlfriend, but girl knew she existed…he had spoken of her to others… she was his ride or die chick, down for him from the beginning, he knew he could trust her, he knew she was not out to get him for what he could potentially gain…

So if the girlfriend was the trustworthy one, who was I?    The thirsty opportunistic chick that was looking at him with dollar signs in my eyes?

You say you really like me, yet you are not able (more so willing) to give her up just yet…you feel obligated to take care of her because she has always been down for you… Because she has and will continue to put up with all your bull?

To me it seems, that  a woman that is willing to stand behind her man when she knows his intentions are no good, not make waves, and still be his ride or die…she’s in it to win it!   She knows that he will take care of her financially, be her provider, and she is not going to mess up a good thing…for some women that is enough.

I am not one for playing second fiddle, not willing to be put on the back burner for anyone, and I am certainly not one to put up with bull just because you promised to provide for me…so I tell boi, “let’s just see what happens, if it’s meant to be, it will  be…”

Two years later, a mutual friend told me that boi married his girlfriend.

Now I cannot speak on how the two feel for each other…

I am sure he loves her and she loves him…

Maybe it took my not allowing a chance for “us” for him to see what he had in her.

I cannot speak on why he married her, but I just look back upon that time, wondering if a sense of duty is what kept him there.

Here I am this intelligent woman looking to make her own mark on the world, which you are really digging…I am more than capable of not just standing behind you…but beside you…with you.

Yet you pass on the possibility of “we” because of your obligation.

Old reliable…the car had already been broken in, may not have been the shiniest sleekest model, but he knew what would happen when he put the key in the ignition and turned it on…

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